Since the semester is almost over and I’m heading back home for the holidays, I feel it’s appropriate to discuss the idea of reflection. The fact that the concept of reflective thinking seems to be crucial in studying English is another reason to write about it. Our roots and beginnings shape us. Their significance is undeniable. However, looking back on your life isn’t very easy. Many people are unhappy with themselves. When practicing reflective thinking, it’s typical to indulge in the urge to practice self-loathing. Earlier in the semester, I wrote a post where I praised the idea of reflective thinking and suggested that one should do it constantly. I take that back. We should all be living in the present at all times, as that is the key to happiness.
Despite knowing this, I’ve failed to take advantage of the many opportunities I’ve been presented with during my short time at Geneseo so far. Why? I’m blinded by being stuck in the past. Moreover, I’m physically unable to act because of a sense of doubt and regret that nourishes laziness and procrastination. This impotence fuels anger and aggression towards myself, which results in feelings of depression that furthers negative thinking.
How do I fix this? First and foremost, I should stop trying to actively ruin my life by engaging in this vicious cycle. As a result of this reflective mindset, I’ve stopped talking to my friends and stopped taking care of my body. The only thing I should be focused on is how I can most efficiently spend my time right now. This could lead me to be more conscious of my actions and thoughts, promoting change.
The past is gone and the future is unpredictable. Our memories of people and places are often faulty perceptions. Most can recognize reality for what it is in the present and take advantage of it. That’s what I need to do. Certainly, reflection has its place when it is controlled, but it is a mighty beast that can easily break most restraints the mind places on it. Therefore, in order to be happy, I can’t entertain thoughts about the past. I must live for today.